Dear Reader,

I want to get back to blogging–especially now that summer is (practically) here and I have much fewer obligations.

I’m having a little bit of writer’s block, though. I have been writing, but nothing I finish sees the light of day because it’s either too long and wordy, too dark, or just too incoherent. None of it is of quality and I don’t want to post just to post.

But that’s kind of what this is.

960.jpgI mean, not really. I was just listening to some songs and these lines would jump out at me and be so relatable that I would just pause what I’m doing and stare into space for a minute, letting the words sink in.

I wrote down some of these lyrics tonight and thought I’d share them. Back to back they seem random. There are definitely recurring themes, but there are also contradictions. And some don’t even relate to my life specifically as it is now. I just generally resonate with all of these words.

And besides, they’re all good songs so I thought I might as well share something.

Maybe after this one of these lyrics will spark something in me and inspire a blog post that isn’t entirely made up of things someone else has said.

“If I could be just one thing, I would be what you’re craving … but I’ve lived long enough to see you will never be craving me.” Iris – Mike Posner

“She just wants to feel something and I don’t think that’s asking for too much.” She Lays Down – The 1975

“And I don’t want a never ending life. I just want to be alive while I’m here. And I don’t want to see another night lost inside a lonely life while I’m here.” Spirits – The Strumbrellas

“I don’t have the right to ask you where you go at night but the waves hit my bed to think someone’s in your bed. I get a little bit Genghis Khan, I don’t want you to get it on with nobody else but me.” Genghis Khan – Miike Snow

“All alone I watch you watch her like she’s the only girl you’ve ever seen.” I hate u I love u – Gnash

“Don’t wish, don’t start. Wishing only wounds the heart. I wasn’t born for the rose and the pearl. He loves her so, I’m not that girl.” I’m not that girl – Wicked

“All of your flaws and all of my flaws they lie there hand in hand. Ones we’ve inherited, one’s that we’ve learned, they pass from man to man.” Flaws – Bastille

“I’m stumbling off drunk, getting myself lost. I am so gone, so tell me the way home. I listen to sad songs, singing about love and where it goes wrong.” One – Ed Sheeran

“And my hopes, they are high, I must keep them small. Though I try to resist, I still want it all.” Fools – Troye Sivan

“Don’t go out much at all. I’ve never been the type to call. I realize to be happy, maybe I need a little company.” Happy – Marina & The Diamonds

“I would rather be at home all by myself not in this room with people who don’t even care about my well-being.” Here – Alessia Cara

“If I’m honest I know I would give it all back for a chance to start over, rewrite an ending or two for the girl that I knew.” (And honestly the whole chorus) She used to be mine – Sara Bareilles

“There is a map in my room in the wall of my room and I’ve got big, big plans.” Maps – The Front Bottoms






Dear Reader,

I did an awful job explaining why I did this, so I ended up cutting most of the explanation out of the video.

Basically, I feel like you can get better at things if you just put yourself out there and do it (channeling my inner Shia LaBeouf here). I know I’ll never be a good singer and I’ll never have a range like Carrie Hope Fletcher or Sia or Lea Michele or anyone really. I know that, it’s fine. But I’ve always wanted to be at least a decent singer and I think (I hope) I can improve.

So my logic here is this: I got better at writing by having a blog and forcing myself to write more. I got better at editing videos and starting my YouTube channel and making videos. So maybe if I sit down every once in a while and sing on camera, I can try and get better.

We’ll see.

So this is a video of me from the beginning of January, trying out a cover of Carrie Hope Fletcher’s new song. I’ll probably end up making this video private one day but for now, let’s just put it out.

Why not try something new?




Dear Reader,

I uploaded a new video on Friday, and then the next day I found a new song that I am absolutely, utterly obsessed with. So I guess you can go ahead and watch this first video to see the eleven songs I’ve been loving since mid-September

and then watch this one here to watch my current favorite.

Yay for new music just in time for long road trips to family gatherings!




Dear Reader,

I’ve never been filthy rich, but I’ve always liked to think that I’d be pretty good at it. And since entering college, I’ve realized how much there is out there that I have no hopes of buying. Don’t get me wrong–I’m fortunate enough to afford things like college, and I work hard for my money at school and in the summer, but with sites like Pinterest and Wanelo, it’s hard for a girl not to dream.


So here are five things that I really wish I had the money to buy:


The Barisieur

This product is an alarm clock that wakes you up with a fresh cup of coffee. Genius, right? Whereas I have to wake up every day to the obnoxious “alarm” sound on my iPhone (and even still, I often sleep through it), I could wake up to the smell of coffee. Plus, it would prohibit me from sleeping in because I obviously wouldn’t want my coffee to get cold!


Desk Treadmill

I probably spend over 5 hours every day on the computer–some days way more. I mean, between schoolwork, writing, my blog, my journal (which is on my Google drive) and then things like YouTube and Pinterest, this laptop gets a lot of use. But if I had this desk, I swear I’d be so in shape. Maybe $950 isn’t so pricey after all…

(Just kidding, I’m still broke)


A Bus

Okay this one doesn’t have a link because I have no idea how to even go about buying a bus, but I have always wanted to buy an old school bus, take out some of the seats and pimp it out, and then just drive across the country with really cool people. Who knows, maybe one day I’ll make this dream a reality (but probably not because paying for the gas alone would wipe out my bank account).



The Right Arm

Yes, I know how lazy I am, but this would come in so handy! (Is that a pun?) It’s  $100 though and I don’t even have an iPad of my own, so this won’t be in my virtual shopping cart any time soon.


Sheepskin Beanbag

And the most expensive thing I found a price for: a sheepskin beanbag (it’s $1,200 you guys). If only I had that kind of money to blow. I’d watch netflix on the iPad for hours before bed, sleep all night on this thing, wake up to a delicious cup of coffee, spend the day getting well over the recommended 10,000 steps while simultaneously completely all of my work, and then my sister and I would tour the country on a tricked out bus.

If only I were rich.




(Bonus): Backyard Roller Coaster

Alright, I don’t care that I’m almost 19 and don’t even have a backyard to put this in–you have to admit that this is pretty cool.


Dear Reader,

Over the weekend my dear sister came to visit me at Miami and helped me with my final project for a video productions class that I’m taking. I didn’t think I would be, but I’m actually pretty pleased with the final product, so I thought I might as well share it.

And who knows, maybe there will be more to come. I can only get better, right?




Dear Reader,

I’ve recently been going through my “favorites” on Youtube and, let me tell you, there are some hidden gems in there that I have completely forgotten about. So, I thought I’d share some videos that either have me laughing out loud or smiling at my screen like an idiot.


This is an act of genius that definitely deserves more views, but, all jokes aside, this might be my new favorite song.


If you think you’re a hot mess, I promise you, this video will give you some much-needed perspective.




I just think this is really important and heartwarming to watch. This is what I like to see.


I mean it’s three incredible guys killing a routine to a Beyonce medley. In heels. What’s not to love?


I don’t know why it’s named this but it’s a dad calling out every person who slips on this ice as they come around this corner. And it’s hilarious.


Honestly, I could spend all day watching GoPro videos. But this one is just amazing.

Well, I hope you all enjoyed, and I hope your days are treating you well. Let me know if there are any awesome videos out there that I’m missing.

YouTube makes me happy.



PS. 🙂


Hey guys,

This is awkward.

I haven’t posted a traditional weekly review (pictures and all) in, what, a month? A month and a half? I’m not going to check, but I don’t really have all that great of an excuse. I guess all I can say is that life gets kind of hard sometimes, and I’ll probably talk more about that in a separate post, but that’s not what this is for.

Let’s remember what this is for. On January 1st, 2015, I decided I would be taking pictures throughout my year and share them on my blog every week so I can document and, therefore, remember some truly great moments at the end of my year.

Now, I’ve been pretty bad at documenting some “truly great moments” for the past few weeks but, nevertheless, I’m going to share what I’ve got. Let’s begin.

I guess it all kind of started when I came back to school, which, let’s be honest, I was not all too excited for. You want to know why? Because this is what happens to me at school.


And this.


These were taken three days apart. Yay.


But school still means I get to see my friends


and partake in some pretty memorable nights.


And, I’ve got to say, I have some pretty great friends.


Friends who will go to Pulley with you at 1am


and make you fraps


and smoothies


and buy you pizza when they’re drunk.


And I’m proud to say that I’m starting a new friendship with fellow blogger Taisie. A friendship that should’ve started months ago, but the letter sort of got lost in the mail. I guess that’s the downside of doing things the old fashioned way.


Still, I’m excited to finally have a pen pal! I just have to get around to figuring out how to mail my response. (College is kind of confusing. Can I buy stamps with Mulaa?)


And then this past weekend, a friend in high school came and visited me. And, because she’ll be coming here next year, I had to show her a true Miami weekend.


She sent this to her mom.


So I sent it to mine.


Also, while going through my camera roll, I noticed I like to take snapchats of food (that I mostly just send to Sarah).


I’m really going to miss Miami Dining this summer.


Other random things: I found a new favorite spot on campus (Benson)


and I got a new sweatshirt for initiation because my parents know me so well.


Sean, my brother, also turned 20 so I posted this throwback that I find hilarious


There’s also a screenshot of Thomas Saunders because he makes me so happy, and just look at his face!


Plus screenshots from my time hop, where tweets from last year’s spring break kept popping up. To date that is my favorite vacation ever.


And there’s a sneak peak of my new book that just makes me laugh. (Oh yeah, I started another book, and I wrote over 20k words in less than two weeks, so that’s another reason why I went MIA).


Finally, there’s this picture.


And this one because I couldn’t decide which I liked better.


But that was the day I shared my 100th post on here, and broke my record for most likes in a day. And the next day, I shared something really personal and got some truly heartwarming responses. It never ceases to amaze me how supportive this website has been for me. And it really means more than I ever thought.

I don’t know, it’s just nice to have something you’re so proud of be shared with people who are eager to see what you want to do next.

Still, it’s kind of weird that this is kept secret from so many people in my life. But this message that my sister sent me really made me laugh.


I think it’s a good deal.


Dear Reader,

Every time I sit down to write my week in review, something goes wrong–and it always seems to happen with the pictures. Either wordpress malfunctions and won’t let me upload them, or my phone won’t send them to my computer via iMessage or, most recently, my email account won’t open on my web browser. Then, I’ll try troubleshooting for about five minutes before giving up and telling myself I’ll go back to it later, but I’ll forget and then sometimes a week goes by and I haven’t written a thing.

So, I’m just going to give a few highlights from the past two weeks, and I’ll edit the post later to add all the snap chats and random pictures that’ll add a bit of clarification to this mess.(Keep in mind that I write all of these with the pictures sitting next to me, so a lot of this doesn’t make much sense quite yet. Oops).

First, I finally went to Beat the Clock with some friends:

And Green Beer Day happened, but I look gross in all the pictures, so enjoy this shot of my friend drinking from a wine glass that was bigger than her head:

I FaceTimed Sarah a lot while waiting to FINALLY see her again:

And then I went to her show choir competition where they placed 3rd overall and Sarah got the award of best female dance of everyone!

Oh and Pi Day happened and my tweet got 3 retweets and 14 favorites which was pretty cool (s/o to Jaden for noticing and sending me this screenshot):

And sometimes I take pics like this to let Sarah know that I know she was my sister first and will always be the realest (I’m wearing a Phi Mu hat but her sweatshirt–kind of hard to see):

And of course we were reunited this week:

So we had to send some snaps to my brother

who is obviously sad he’s missing out on our sibling bonding

OH AND IN OTHER NEWS: I’m an adult. When I was a sophomore, I lost a baby tooth, and I thought that was the end of it. But nope, this is the end.

My tooth broke off a bit in my mouth maybe a week ago and I went in on Monday to get a filling, but my dentist noticed that this was, in fact, my last baby tooth. (They had a good chuckle when I told them that I’m 18).

So, the nurse goes, “no filling?” and he turns to me and, in his booming voice, exclaims, “I’m not fixing this! I’m gonna numb you up and pull that sucker out!” Such a sensitive one, that one.

But no picture. Because that’s gross.

So that’s what’s been happening in my life. Hope everyone else is somewhere sunnier and warmer than where I am (it’s snowing right now).



PS. Do yourself a favor and listen to the entire Hozier album if you haven’t done so already–Jackie and Wilson and Like Real People Do and Someone New are my current favorites (because it’s so hard to choose just one).


Dear Reader,

So I kind of procrastinated writing this post because week 10 was not really one for the books. But, I’ve got to follow through with this project so here’s my review of week 10:

It started in the worst way possible. Thursday morning I got up and had a banana, a granola bar, and a questionable chicken salad sandwich. I went to my classes, POTH practice, and a serenade at the arch, but I was feeling kind of funny the entire time.

By the time I got to Brandon Hall, I knew I was going to throw up. I was actually in some much discomfort that I actually took my toothbrush into the bathroom and was ready to  induce it myself. Luckily, it didn’t have to come to that.

But I did spend the night in the communal bathroom (sleeping on the floor in between these episodes) and scare some people who thought I was passed out from alcohol poisoning or something.

Eventually it all came to an end and I slept away the remainder of my Friday (meaning I had to miss Big/Little Reveal). Even the rest of the weekend turned out to be not that productive because I still felt queasy a lot. And I’m still not sure if this was food poisoning or just a stomach virus, but I sure won’t be eating chicken salad sandwiches for a while.

I also went to the hockey game on Saturday which was fun because we won! And my friend got to ride the zamboni.

And on Sunday I signed a lease on a house for junior year! I’m in love with everything about the house, and I’m so excited to live with the seven other girls that signed with me! It all just seems so far away right now–it’s weird to think of myself as a 20-year-old college student.

Finally,  the last  highlight of my week was POTH. This is a dance competition that raises money for a school for the deaf, and each sorority and fraternity makes a dance and competes. Only the pledge classes can participate, so it was a lot of fun to be a part of it for the one year I could and, even though we didn’t win, it was a blast to learn choreography and perform, seeing as I had never done anything like that before.

So that was my week. Maybe Week 11 will be a bit more memorable.



PS: Sorry for the lack of pictures. WordPress won’t let me upload any and it’s too annoying for me to try and figure out. But don’t worry, you’re not missing much.


Dear Reader,

What do I say week after week? Focus on the good. Always. Focus. On. The good. And this week, I’ve got to say, some pretty good things happened.


Starting with Thursday: I had an amazing dinner at Boulangerie


received this snap from my friend at UC who decided to look up my house on Google Maps, which I thought was hilariously random, but also weirdly heartwarming


got a text that made my day


and discovered a dress that ruined it

0227-black-blue-dress-3 Not really, but apparently that dress is black and blue.


I still don’t see it.

I also took my bed apart because I wanted to switched up the room and realized I had made a HUGE MISTAKE. But, luckily, I had some good friends who helped me put it back together when I realized I couldn’t do it alone.

Life is full of crazy metaphors when you want to find them.

Then on Friday I FINALLY got to meet my niece!


And I went home for Sarah’s dance competition, which I had to wake up for at 5:30 in the morning.


But yay for roadtrips and pretty sunrises and sister bonding.


Sarah also killed it with her dance team, if anyone was wondering.


We also got Mr. Freeze, a local ice cream shop that indicates the nearing of summer!!!


And I went to the talent show with Kennedy and we saw the DUFF with Sarah afterwards (sidenote: would recommend)

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On Sunday I was welcomed to this notification


which meant the start of big/little week,

full of serenades




and embarrassing facebook pictures


As if this week couldn’t get any better, I had THE BEST day with Kassara and Desii at Pfeffer park.


I had to make a video for my Intro to Video Production class (which I might just post on here later) so we went sledding, played in the park, blew snow around, and found a pretty cool ice cave/fort/thing.


Prime selfie lighting, by the way.


In other news of this week: I got this bomb smoothie because they made too much and filled it ALL THE WAY to the top (rare for King Cafe)


and I cried my eyes out watched S3E14 of Scrubs and the most heartbreaking scene of Big Hero 6 again. No picture, but sometimes you just need a good tug at your heart strings, you know?

So that was my week–all the good minus the bad and the ugly.

It’s amazing how helpful an optimistic perspective can be. 🙂