As I’ve mentioned before, I’ve been in kind of a rut lately. I haven’t been posting that much, which is mostly due to the fact that everything I write seems rubbish to me. Most of it I don’t even finish.
But I want to be a writer. I want to keep up with my journal and I want to keep updating my blog and I really want to finish my novels. But none of that will happen until I get out of my own way and just write.
I’ve always been kind of hard on myself when it comes to writing. I’ve never had a large vocabulary, or been able to perfectly describe what I’m trying to say–not like other people do. I see these beautiful quotes and read these books where these people, humans not so different than I, fit something so seemingly indescribable into the perfect passage. But when I try to do it, it never seems right.
And I’ll try and try, only to stumble across my writing months later and think, “what was I doing? This is crap!”
But here’s the thing: even if it is, that’s okay. Because, often, I’ll find that now I can write it better. I’m improving–even if it’s an improvement from a crappy start.
So I came across this picture the other day
It’s one that I’ve seen before, but I’ve forgotten about. And that’s often the problem. I’ll find these quotes all over the internet that instantly inspire me to get to work, but then the next day, they’ll be gone from my memory.
So, I made a change. And now it’s my background.
So, I will be posting more now. Maybe I’ll post more of my writing. Maybe I’ll keep going with the book reviews, or go back to the weekly updates. Maybe I’ll try poetry!
And maybe it’ll suck. But I like to think that it’ll get better, one day. I’ve just got to get there.